Not To Toot My Own Horn But, Beep Beep

Four year strong blasting through these tiny speakers
only half of which i can actually hear.
this sickness is pretty much taking over my whole body
eating my insides and not leaving any crumbs.
for a moment of time ill feel great, ready to move on throughout my day
and then im dragged into this dark pit of empty
with no one to keep me company
and no one to pull me out
just left to bask in nothing at all.
some say this will kill you
do you have the will power to continue fighting?
the guts to say I WONT LET THIS HAPPEN TO ME!(?)
I've lost quite the amount of weight
not wanting to eat
or do anything at all
the medication continues to let me sleep
so then i look slugish day in day out.
i look hopeless
and everyone is beginning to notice.
my ears feel like hands are covering them
like someone doesn't want me to hear whats going on.
everything is so foggy but my eyes don't have a defogger
and my nose isn't willing to let the disease blow.
my arms feel hurt
like i've been bruised
like they're about to break off.
my whole life feels like its about to break off
like Pangaea is seperating for a second time.
four year strong is playing through these tiny speakers
and i hear the song slowly slipping away.