due to headache

hes here with me i just know it; that shadow that will not budge. goddamn you! leave me here to die, no need to put me through the agony of one more day without you. its been too long! its been too long! and I'm still here I'm still here! I'm just falling apart thinking of hugs and love and all that puppy bullshit. its never going to change for me you will never change me. cant you see I've been here forever and forever is where I'll stay. i don't want to but i have no choice.
I've looked north!
and I've looked away and i can never get myself anywhere else.
I'm here for good
and all you left was a shadow
i don't get it!
i don't get why i am left here
i want to leave
i need a place to grow
I'm a premature kind of habit
I'm nothing more than dirt
its been said so many times!
"you will go no where"
no matter how many times you try to reach out to the open door
it will slam your fingers in
it will leave you in pain.
this shadow will just laugh its all it can do!
that number
wont dial itself
and you wont dial it either
you prefer to know what could be but what wont be.
and all you do is complain
about the awkward silences
and how the real image never leaves you
but you have the shadow
he watches your every move
and he is young and pure and not sure of what will happen next.
but you never made your move and you never will because your heart is too scared to mend itself and you think all will get better eventually.
it wont
you let this world eat you whole!
and you think everything will be fine?!
you'll continue to bitch this whole life through
yet you''ll never make a move to stop it?!
that shadow will never leave you if you plan on doing nothing. it will continue to laugh at you and let this regret build up.
you still have time don't let this get to you.
its been too long. its been too long.