you are stuck in this box

it ridiculous to love someone whose been out of your life for four years
and its terrible to be crushing on someone you've only said two words to.
and everything seems to be out of proportion in my mind
so everything is sprouting out at once
leaving everyone puzzled.
the sun spots im seeing are moving fast like an airplane through a bright and sunny sky
i wish i were on that plane
ending up somewhere other than here
if only for a few days
or a few hours
to be gone and think of something new
rather to be stuck in this disgust and remorse of the weeks past.
the days drive will not happen for me today
they refuse to walk out on a sunny day
so everyone has to suffer and never get the sun bleached hair
at least thats in my house for today
so maybe tomorrow can be better
but for now were going to create the perfect tv family
while i sit here alone up in my room.