Sit and Stare

this is going to bother me for some time now
not that it already hasnt
are we a yes or no
a swing of temperary excitment
one couldnt tell with every event that has passed.

frustration frustration frustration
my mind rings with it daily
im just going to guess 80% of that is from you
yes you mean this much to me
feel better yet?
cuz i know i dont

everything you do to me
well it glues for a time longer than life
maybe its just my childish brain
never wanting to let go
not wanting to accept this change

but is it worth it when i do?
its not like things with us can be different
perhaps only more awkward than now
we keep each other a secret
only because we're too young to reach out.

there goes my mind thinking too deep
this happens every time you're around
every time your mouth opens and you spill a slight inch of emotion

you can open up with me
ill be your friend
and i want to picture me mature and older
i want to see us and not you and then me
i want life to tell me its okay to be this way with myself
and i want to end up in your arms.

ill be daydreaming longer than expected.