today they spoke. she gazed in another eyes.

i thought that maybe i could get this off my mind with some sleep
a moments nap did me no good
then i told myself let me go for a drive
but the only place i drove to made me think about you even more
so i returned home and i sat here trying to clear my brain hoping this would pass me
but its one of those things that never want to move out of line
i feel congested with your presence
its not what i would expect from some simple move that i made myself
but this just never works out for me
your going to be in my dreams i'm almost sure of it
i cant believe i let you do this to me but at the same time im never willing to let go of what we have
and now that regret is building and shell be returning i dont know what to say or to think i would ask for your help but i feel itll just create a bigger hole for me to be in
where will i go with this story?
i never know ill just let the wave flow.

Sit and Stare

this is going to bother me for some time now
not that it already hasnt
are we a yes or no
a swing of temperary excitment
one couldnt tell with every event that has passed.

frustration frustration frustration
my mind rings with it daily
im just going to guess 80% of that is from you
yes you mean this much to me
feel better yet?
cuz i know i dont

everything you do to me
well it glues for a time longer than life
maybe its just my childish brain
never wanting to let go
not wanting to accept this change

but is it worth it when i do?
its not like things with us can be different
perhaps only more awkward than now
we keep each other a secret
only because we're too young to reach out.

there goes my mind thinking too deep
this happens every time you're around
every time your mouth opens and you spill a slight inch of emotion

you can open up with me
ill be your friend
and i want to picture me mature and older
i want to see us and not you and then me
i want life to tell me its okay to be this way with myself
and i want to end up in your arms.

ill be daydreaming longer than expected.

hey spider

i once knew a spider
who wanted to get higher
and followed music wherever it played.

everyone felt they were never able to know this spider
and she was never able to know herself
kept away for all these years
it was time for her to get off the shelf.

trailing along the streets
she listend close to every beat
the cars the trash cans the feet
the vibe was letting her float
she was sailing on the musical boat

ending up at the chance
with her first glance
the spider had fallen in love

she followed the stairs into the main room
the music loud and proud
the largest crowd shes ever seen
she was ready to become a rock n' roll queen

within the cracks of the walls
the noise down the halls
the spider couldnt keep up

faster than fashon was on
planning on playing all night long
she realized this was her "cup"

starring into each pair of eyes
feeling unreal with her existence
the music flowed inside her
it became her life
gave her strife
and now nothing was a blur

the music crawled up her spin
broke her in half
put her back together and
broke her again

month and month
she ended up back at the chance
chipping paint but some awesome bands
mayday parade and all time low
where the wild things are and ready set go
time stood still or just went really slow

loving every minute
she wanted to feel what they were feeling
and with a sense of belonging
this was going to be her new home

she left her mark adn is remembered for it with each return
her name was legendary
"the spider who let herself run free"
"the spider others wanted to be"
it didnt matter that no one knew her before
she realized her life was no longer going to be a bore

looking for acceptance
after eight years shes finally found it
her time is coming to move on and enjoy this earth on her own
shell be going high and wide, she'll soar

she daydreams and she questions
"where will i end up?"
"will i end up where i want?"

brave and unafraid of the journey ahead of her
she felt the beauty in her claws
and she wasnt letting go
music let her feel the passion the pain the joy
this is the spider we all want to know.

Icicles

The bird became me
he told me to soar and let my wings flow high and wide
he told me if i look back
look back in grace
he told me a story of a girl who didn't know how to take life
he said it was short and should never have a care or worry
all will be great all will be swell
a tear appeared in my eye and he wafted it away
he left me dry and wanting more.
he left with a smile he flew up high.
i shouldn't let things bring me down
it'll only take my life to the darkest alleys
hes seen it all and that i want to be
i became the bird and he became me
i learned how to live free.

Dont believe me.

the rain pours on the misery
and that makes me stand out clearly
with this cloud over my head
i should've listened to what my parents said
when they said beware of the monsters
and to look ahead with my eyes wide open
now I'm the only one left to say
I'm sorry.

deserved and departed
she was left by the stream
watching the leaves go by
they walked away like we have with you
its not your time to shine but it'll always be your fault

a kiss on the cheek and a lie on the forehead
you left us in shock with those hilarious words
your makeup couldnt cover your false promises
and now your mascara is dripping on the floor
you can't hide from what we already know

All that ever made sense

now its time to say goodbye
with all we've been through
and the trouble Ive been in
I'm glad we can move on from
controversy.
i look back on this day
brave and unafraid of what will follow me
throughout this future
that lays in her hands.
my heart will always hold this feeling.
whenever your name is heard or written,
ill know
and my eyes will glitter for a moment before
realization.
we are done
you can call us what we want
but there is no us in you and I
we are no longer the super team that planned on
conquering.

we is you and me.
i miss what we were,what we could be.