midnight trains to anywhere but home

no one gets it
no one ever will
i don't see how it takes forever to notice
its nothing big
its not too small
but its there.
they'll never understand like you and i have
the struggle i went through
how long it took
even if the end product wouldn't be our best
i was okay with that
it was the fact that i gained the power
with your help
to succeed.
no one gets it
no one ever will
and that's how
i learned to give up

she needs to scream

ill tell you all the bad things Ive done
only after i let you know how you are.
what you did
where i stand
i am unsure.
but there's this hope i think lying above my bed
staring at me in the night
giving me shivers down my spine.
i thought we were good
we were right
i was wrong
i believed more than the eyes showed me,
its something i tend to do.
i care just a little too much
and that's where i go bad.

obsession and dishonesty are two things i cannot stand
but tend to have on me
i don't want to be a bad one
i only mean good when we speak
but the times are catching up with all Ive ever done
and i can no longer run
they've caught me and they need me to surrender

no matter what Ive done
the deepest crime i could carry out
my white flag will never be raised
and that's where i go bad.